I only stopped then because NO ONE WAS THERE!

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I really don't even know what to say.

Words cannot properly express how happy I am now.

I cried tonight. I was watching a show and everything was working out for them after one load of crap after another was dumped on them. Tears streamed from my eyes.

But it was such a happy cry. I cannot even remember the last time I did that. The tears were warm and nice and I could not stop smiling. I loved it.

I'm not on here near as much anymore. I don't have time. I don't get home from school most nights until around 3.

I've spent almost every day and night with David these past three weeks. Everything about him makes me so happy: his carefree attitude, the goofy things he does, his cat impression, his silly smiles, how he's always willing to go anywhere with me, and everything else.

Like today: he was taking the inside path to DAAP and I was taking the outside path to Daniel's. He knocked on the window to get my attention and smiled and waved to me. I couldn't stop smiling until I got to the dorms. I only stopped then because NO ONE WAS THERE! But then David asked me to come meet him at center court just moments later. :) Completely made my day.

That is, until we were watching Zombieland and he wrapped his arm around my stomach and pulled me towards him. Then that made my day.

But that was one upped again when he held my hand as he walked me across campus to my car at 2am. He'd never grabbed my hand before. Or held it for that matter. I almost lost it with excitement right there.

See, the thing with David, he's different than most boys I've been with. And I am SO FREAKING GLAD FOR THAT! This is EXACTLY what I need.

David is shy and timid until he knows you very well. It's strange, I've been working on getting him for only three weeks. It feels like a month at the very least! I guess that's what happens when you see him everyday for at least twelve hours...

Relationship-wise, he has a reputation for putting minimal effort in it and keeping it much like just friends, but with the little differences. So he's not going to be holding my hand all the time or always holding me and such. But that is so much what I want; that easy relationship. The kind where we can play Starcraft and Super Smash or watch movies together for fun instead of only being physical. And we truly watch the movies. I just love his comments throughout them. :) Some things I do like that he still does is that he always walks next to me, either sits next to or directly across from me at meals, and if we're sitting, he's always touching me in some way (feet, legs, arms, hand, whatever).

Now, we are not dating, but I hope to God we will and I'm a lot more sure now that he wants to too. I'm just not sure he has the courage to ask me, haha. Too bad! I'm not doing it! He better suck it up and do it already. :)

We act like we are a lot of the time. We're alone a lot of the time, plus the things about sitting, walking, and contact I said before. He always finds an excuse for me to come up to school too, thank goodness. 1, I get to see him :) 2, I get to see everyone else. 3, I'm not home. Full. Of. Win.

It's really great. I hear songs on the radio now and don't instantly think of Brandon. I don't necessarily think of David, because I'm not in love with him, but I can actually listen to music again. You have no idea what that means to me.

It's not just David either. Everything just seemed to get so much better. I absolutely love every one of my friends at school and I'm so close to every one of them. All my projects turned out great for class and I'm hardly ever home to hear about anything bad here. AND I'M LEAVING FOR NEW YORK THIS FRIDAY!!!!!! I CANNOT WAIT!

Sad story though- I'm actually going to miss seeing everyone at school. It's weird, missing people. I can't even pull myself away from them for one night this week to hang out with my home friends because I know I won't see them for four days. How sad is that? You can definitely tell where my priorities lie.

They're just such better friends than my home friends have ever been in general. But let's not get into that. Happy time, remember? :D

Ah, well I should try to sleep. I have to be up at school tomorrow around 230 :) Can't wait! :D

Love you! Night!

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PS-I decided for this 'blog' I guess--though I hate calling it that--I'm going to make the titles a random line from the entry. It may not make sense, but that's the fun of it!